Week 6 - half time... rethinking the strategy

half time.
(yes, another football reference, i know. )

So i now find myself at the halfway mark of this strange but miraculous program that i am on with the Drs and the other 5 women. Talk about the glass half empty or full, Last Wednesday we were all sad and nervous at the prospect of it ending. And we still have 6 more weeks to go!
Dean said it doesn't have to end, he will find space for us to continue our group sessions, or suggested we find somewhere to meet up every Wednesday when his part is over. His other groups have stayed together years after the initial program ended. I hope we can do that too.

So i look back at the last six weeks in shock and awe at what I've accomplished, and look forward at the next six and need to figure out what i need to change or tweak.

I still let the numbers play games with my head. Whether its on the scale, on the body fat meter or my heart monitor, i get so wrapped up in the numbers that i forget to take into account how good i feel.
But the numbers game is an old one for me, and its an old habit thats taking its time to die.... :-(
It's not a competition. its my life, so i need to focus focus focus.
Maybe i need to watch my portion size (ya think), perhaps i need to pre plan my meals more so i'm not scrambling to figure out what i can eat. Yup. Stuff like that.

I know i need help in the time management area. I can't be black or white, zero or a hundred. I'm working on that big time. I calendar in my work outs, my painting time, my real life stuff...
I don't know how i did it when i worked 9-5 and had little kids.  oh thats right, i didn't do it well at all.
I was over stressed and worn out. That's what got me into this study in the first place, duh.

I still say the Serenity Prayer and try to understand i am not in control of everything.
That's a toughie this week as we go thru something with my son and i cant fix it. Calling Dr Ornish's calmness and meditations into my psyche with every fiber of my being. Hard, but I'm not giving up.
I think Half Time is when you go into the locker room and reassess what you've done so far.
If you're winning, you tell yourself don't get cocky. if you're behind, you up your game for the second half.

so that's where i am now, perhaps I was getting cocky, i was feeling so much better, people were noticing, i was smiling a lot more, i was less anxious. Then real life stepped in. So I'm upping my game.
focus focus focus.
on to week 7